Tuesday, March 6, 2007

Funny Lady

The original "funny lady," Paula Johnson, made her debut at The Ice House to a near sold-out crowd last night, but one person was conspicuously missing - me. Since I was the butt of one of Paula's jokes and had encouraged many friends to attend, I tried my darndest to be there. But grogginess and a continuing case of "green behind the gills" prevailed. (Ironically, I postponed my chemo until next Monday to make sure that I wouldn't miss this big night.)

George and a half-dozen other friends have reported back to me that Paula was indeed hilarious. George said that Paula can even make sipping water from a plastic bottle look funny.

I plan to view the DVD with a few friends on Friday and will give a full report later this week.

One thing that I've discovered is that it's easier to be a "funny lady" behind the keyboard than it is to put on a happy face in person. As I mentioned in an earlier post, I missed my friends' wedding on Friday but made an appearance at their reception. I WANTED to be there, but my body didn't. I TRIED to take the focus off how I was feeling by asking questions. (e.g. Now what percentage of the entire portfolio do you recommend that clients invest in foreign currency?) I PRETENDED that I was feeling fine, but I'm apparently not very good at it.

Consequently, my life since Friday has been a series of broken social engagements: a wedding, breakfast, lunches, dinners, The Ice House. This, I see, will be my challenge: figuring out the balance between "giving in" to feelings of exhaustion and sickness or "going out" and continuing to the best of my ability.

Suggestions are welcome!


Janet Aird said...

You already mentioned the key: balance. Go out when you feel up to it and stay in when you don't. Once you get over this, you can go out as much as you want (I'm exhausted just thinking about it).

Karen said...

I think it's important to give yourself permission to stay in bed if you feel crappy. I'm also a get-up-and-go kind of person and have a very hard time lying around, so I relate to your frustration.

But please know that we all understand if you can't be somewhere, and go easy on yourself.

We missed you a lot last night, but will enjoy watching Paula all over again on Friday.:-)

Paula Johnson said...

Janet is right. When cancer is your social secretary, things are bound to get scrambled. So hop off the merry-go-round and let yourself veg out. You'll be back to your madcap multi-tasking ways sooner than you think.

Susan Carrier said...

Thanks for the good advice, gal pals. One of my fears is that friends will "write me off" after I've flaked a few times, but I see that's a needless worry.

Judy said...

Paula was indeed one of the funniest people who performed last night. Maybe, she should put together another routine for our next holiday party. Wait until you see the tape, you'll just howl.

As for feeling crappy and lying around...An iPod filled with your favorite tunes might be the answer. Music can have a very calming effect when words and conversation fail. Many years ago in the pre-iPod era, I had to have some oral surgery done. When the dentist told me I was going to have to sit staring into space for 3 and a half hours, I almost wigged out. But he let me bring a cassette player with my favorite tapes to the office. I listened to great music the whole time and was oblivious to the surgery. I didn't get bored for a minute. That's today's tip for sanity maintenance.

Best, Judy

Janet Aird said...

Trust me, no friend will ever write you off.

Margaret Finnegan said...

Balance? In this case it is very easy: Let the world come to you. On your terms. When you are ready. It's your turn to be the diva. Take it. Paula's right: you'll be madly multi-tasking sooner they you know. That's a promise because you are very good at that madcap multi tasking. We need you.

P.S.: I owe you soup.


Lilli said...

So hard to keep up with all these writers! So clever, so profound, so poignant, especially you Susan.

But I love Janet's comment the most because it is so true -- no friend will ever write you off.

And Paula was hilarious, in person, in writing.

Lastly, here's what I found when I've been sick: the good news is, the world can get along without you. The bad news is: the world can get along without you. But your friends and family still need and want you, which is why you have to take care of yourself.

Susan Carrier said...

Thank you all for the collective wisdom and support!